No Tuesday! Back the fuck off!

Okay... so I have two tests to study for tomorrow and I actually got about half of what I was supposed to have finished done Sunday (that's a first for me... ) I just don't want to do the stupid Space Travel test. I'm fine with the Japanese Lit, that's fine, that's easy, but this other one is a pain in the asshole. It's a 102 class, and the tests are too freaking hard. Anyways, I can see myself failing that class, but I should be okay with my quarterly GPA that my financial aid won't be taken away.

Still on the prowl for a new job. I'm probably going to ditch the restaurant altogether. No, make that definitely. I will keep the bakery job because my employer actually told me how much she appreciated me and all that I do. And I've only been at the bakery for 7 months. My boss at the Family Inn, outside of maybe a letter of recommendation, has never said anything so sincere in the 3+ years I have worked for her. On top of that, my hours there have been slashed down to a third. Labor is apparently too expensive, but I HIGHLY doubt that my boss is poor. She lives in a PRIVATE SPOT IN THE WOODS in a LARGE HOUSE with LARGE TELEVISIONS and a PUREBRED GERMAN SHORT-HAIRED POINTER which she takes to DOG SHOWS and she drives a BRAND NEW SUBARU... she's not poor. And if she's in debt, fuck her. She's put herself there. The problems with the restaurant greatly stem from her lack of management and her own alcoholism. I can't wait till' that place shuts down for good. I know it will, and if it doesn't I'll know that she'll be miserable from money problems. Having lots of money means more money problems. I sincerely hope that she is yanked down to my level and has to get rid of her luxuries and realizes what it truly feels like to live paycheck to paycheck.

At any rate, I'm hoping for the Albertson's job... or maybe even Safeway. I have yet to experience the grocery store field. I'll probably hate it, but whatever. I'm also hoping for the Best Buy job just so that it's closer to where I want to move to.

This money crunch is difficult because I'm addicted to spending money and eating out all of the time. It's maddening. I want to make lunches for myself, but I feel that everything I make is disgusting. Aside from baking I guess. Actual lunch and dinner food, I can't do it. It always tastes weird or I just don't want to spend the time to do it. Also, I hate spending money on a food experiment and it goes terribly wrong. I need to figure something out. I need to get into a routine.

Anywho, I should probably get off the school computer and make headway towards home... the 3 hour commute home.

Triumph over glory?

I have a strong urge to watch Rock and Rule. I don't know what it is about that movie. It's shitty, but... I like listening to the sound track. If they actually released a sound track, maybe I wouldn't watch the movie so much? I don't know.

So, I went to see an actual English Undergraduate counselor this week and I was given pretty much the best news. I'm going to be out of here by, at most, next Autumn Quarter. I want to actually be out of here by summer if I could. Who knows? But yeah, I'm actually not going to be here for forever like I had thought. I just got to stick it out through 2009.

I can almost sense that I'm going to get a bad grade in Space class unless I'm showed at least some mercy. In fact, hopefully half of the class is given a break... a lot of people didn't do well on the last test. Also, the homework is incredibly frustrating and difficult. And this is a class that's in the 100 level... it is seriously the hardest class I'm in. My other classes though, I'm doing a stellar job. I'm about ready to be done with this quarter though... the amount of group work I've had to do is profound. Ugh.

I think the biggest worry I have at the moment is finding another job. I have been cut in both places that I work and am hardly making anything. The bakery I can understand, but the restaurant? Shit. You know what though? I think it's time I do find something better. Maybe a 24 hour grocery store or something. I can do that. I can work late evenings and such. I wonder if I can manage to snag a 38 hours per week job. At least I'll be making over 1000 a month if I had that. And I'd still be willing to work at the bakery on Saturday mornings. In fact, I'm going to fill out an application for Albertson's and once I get that job, I'm out of the restaurant. I really don't know why the Family Inn is still open. I really don't. It doesn't make any money except for in the bar. Why not just shut down the restaurant side? Hoi. That place sucks.

I can't wait to get out of minimum wage positions. I just want a job that pays okay. I'm fine with middle class. That's cool. I'm tired of being lower class though. I've had to live in it for so freaking long... I've had my phone shut down at my house for a full year. How do you do that nowadays? I'm just striving to not be what my parents are. I really don't think they're going to be going anywhere... they'll always be living paycheck to paycheck.

Anyways, I should probably get off this crazy thing.